Hi everyone!
Well, I expect it's about time that I do another update to let you know that I'm still among the living. Yeah, bad choice of words, considering...
Since I last wrote, things haven't gotten any better. Two weeks after my sister passed away, one of the guitarists in my band decided to leave the group without telling me, putting the entire band on hold. While I wasn't counting on the band to help me through the grieving process, it would have given me a pleasant diversion from dwelling on Mary Ann's death. Then, my best friend, musical collaborator, and my "right arm" for the past six years, suddenly told me my friendship wasn't worth making the 20 minute drive down from his apartment to see me. This was after promising and forgetting three days in a row that we were getting together. Just like that, the friendship came to a halt. I must admit, that hurt almost as much as my sister's death, and was more unexpected. He won't answer my phone calls or emails, and deletes my comments from his Facebook. Regular readers, if I have any left, know how big a part of my life Keith is (was). Coming on the heels of the other two emotional upheavals, you can imagine how miserable I am. It wouldn't be an understatement that I'm lost without him. I'm like Lennon without McCartney, and I only say that because I was the more sarcastic one; and that's as far as that comparison goes.
For the next little while, my doctor has me on Ativan, which does help me cope when it seems like everything's caving in on me. If Keith and I can't patch things up, eventually I'll be able to move on, though it's very hard to imagine my world without Keith in it. Right now, I'm still trying to make sense of it all.
Not that everything's gone down the toilet. We did find another guitarist for the band, but "Six Second Countdown" will become "Five Second Countdown", which makes more sense anyway. The band is going back into rehearsal tonight, so I have that to look forward to. My other friends are being as supportive as they can be, for which I thank them. Every day gets a little more normal, even though I still miss the people who are now gone from my life just as much. I'll always love them, because Nick and Keith were (are) just as much family as Mary Ann was.
That's about it for now. If there are any major breakthroughs, I'll update again. I'll definitely keep you posted on the band once we figure out where we are and where we're going, musically. And, yes, sooner or later, I'll finish the "Growing Up in the 60's/70's music scene, promise. :)
Till next time, love to all of you!
Comments (2)
You've still got at least one regular reader! :)
Corky, you have had some tough times recently. No one should have to go through all of that, especially not all in a row. Eventually, you'll hopefully be able to make sense of it, but right now I know it's gotta be hard. At least you can focus on the positives, though. Seems like the band is working out pretty well. :)
Oh and yes, we're all waiting on the edge of our seats for the next installment, bub. :P
In time, everything will turn out.
Give time, time. :]Corky, I'm still a reader.Mostly thru email, but still a reader.
Rachel and I are taking Lily to her first hockey game tonight.It'll be a good time.Go Wild. :]